"For in mine holy mountain, in the mountain of the height of Israel, saith the Lord God, there shall all the house of Israel, all of them in the land, serve me: there will I accept them, and there will I require your offerings, and the firstfruits of your oblations, with all your holy things."
Do you wonder why the years go by and still you don't hear much from "christians", and it feels like in one hundred years, if they're still here, nothing will have changed? Maybe they don't really believe they are criminals who deserved to die for seeking "things", and they have only looked for an "alternative" to the Discipleship in order to keep the "dream" of the "girl on the boat" in them alive. They could be vibing with the world, not really humbling themselves and wholeheartedly searching for Truth.
Why have I always felt the girls on the bus closer to my mind than those next to my body in the temple? Why does God answer prayers of people who might not even realize they are praying? If you search for "mine elect", you get an idea. I'm not saying that those people you meet there are not His, but I find it disturbing and scary when they fail to judge as the Judge expect them to do. If they are calling Him from upon the Rock, why do they behave as though there were no Thing and nobody to defend? Maybe the "alternative" is as dangerous as living your "life" without ever calling upon His name and coming into temples, leaving you out of Course, only pretending to be His pupil. Because if you're are praying for "things", you don't really want and need Her.
Have you accepted Word as your personal Savior?
Are you sure it's not your selfish will that still matters to you doing?